That bottle of pink juice stares me in the face every time I open the refrigerator…which is a lot. Dare I…?

I’m trying to cut back on all the eating I tend to do. So far I’ve pretty much cut out all the snacking and have only been eating like, meals. My weakness though…that so darn tempting ice cream! It’s like I have to have ice cream. Man…maybe I could just cut out like actual ice cream and go for Popsicles. Especially the sugar free kind. I love sugar free ice creammm (someone buy me someee). So yes. Candice, you will cut out ice cream and soda and…other…sugary…goodness…wahhhh

You know, it kind of downs my cheer when people younger than me (especially goddamm twelve year olds xP) are more…developed…than I am. Like…really. Girls on my sister’s softball team and in her class are more developed than I am. It’s slightly depressing xP No offense to my family but…STUPID GENES!

I have also come to a decision. I no longer want to pursue a career in forensic science. I have decided to set my sights on a career in film! More specifically, film editing. I know I didn’t do much on film project…but surely given the chance, I could be pretty good at it. I spent a lot of time editing a video I made a couple of years ago. Sure, it didn’t use actual footage or anything, but TIMING IS SERIOUSLY A BITCH.

Welp…I miss you like crazy, Love. I had a good simile the other day…OH YEAH! I don’t know if you read it in that one survey, but I said I miss you “like the sky misses being unpolluted.” I liked that one. I really want to see you. Every night when you talk to me I try to imagine that you’re lying next to me and talking to me. I think the reason that I like talking to you on the phone so much is that I like having a sense of you actually being there…sort of. I just like the idea of you near me in any way. I love you =]

I don’t remember if it was last night or this morning, but I was imagining me showing up at Bellarmine when you got out of class. Since I don’t have my own car…or a license for that matter…I would ask my cousin to give me a ride. Somehow I would find you without calling you. I would be wearing a pair of black jeans, probably my The Used shirt, and my Gir jacket and my black sunglasses. I’d have my hood on too. I would sneak up behind you and put my hands over your eyes. You would never guess who it was because you’d never think that I would manage to get there. After many minutes of you trying to guess, I’d get impatient and turn you around and quickly kiss you. And magically no one would notice cuz the universe would love us that day. So we’d be there and be happy together. Then my cousin and her boyfriend would kidnap us and take us to Pismo Beach…cuz I like it there. And you’re parents magically wouldn’t care. So when we get there, we’d realize that [random thought: someone buy me a switchblade! What for?...no reason =] we didn’t have bathing suits. Then we’d go find the nearest mall and buy cute bathing suits and sunglasses and stuff. Then we’d head to the stores near the beach. We’ll stop at that giant candy store and get every flavor of saltwater taffy that they have! Then we’d finally go to the beach and frolic on the sand and in the water. We’d freely hug, hold, and kiss each other and it’ll be one of the best days ever. We’d stay until it got dark. We would be able to watch the sunset together and I’d kiss you long and passionately thinking that it was all just a dream…gawd I want you… =F

So I don’t know what else to rant about… =]